Through My Lens part 2 

Hi, hey, hello! Today is a fun little entry of old photographs of mine. It seemed to be popular last time so I thought I’d add some more. 

Like I said before I shoot with a Canon 600D   

I hope you enjoy these photographs as much as I do! 

Until next time! Talk soon x 

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Where it all began! (Heath & Lifestyle 1) 

Hi, hey, hello everyone! I hope your week has been filled with plenty of goodness and you’ve been keeping gratefuls in mind when things are tough! 
Today’s entry is Blog 1 of many on my health journey. It’s a slow and steady race but I know it’ll all be for the best. I thought I’d start with some background and then build up to now. 

I was always a “chubby” kid, running around with my cousins. Always outside and then once I got to around 10 years old I started noticing I was a little bigger than the other kids. I can recall a few times doctors had told my mum I was “a bit big” for my age or even one doctor, who I always used to call the Cowboy doctor, (because he wore cowboy boots all the damn time) told me I was “fat” whilst examining my abdomen. At 10 years old, I was devastated. I remember always thinking if only I could just cut all my fat bits off or I wish I could wake up in the morning and be skinny like everyone else. 


(This is me at around age 10 with a family member) 

As a kid, I think a lot of things set your mind to think a certain way, things effect you for a long time and sometimes you never let go of them. 
From then on I just seemed to be a big girl, the fat friend. I was always aware of how much space I took up, how my clothes fell on my body, how much I could eat in public or how little, how many serves of food I could eat before people started giving me a look or even what I swam in, in the family pool as a child. I could never wear a bikini like my cousins or my friends. I never felt comfortable in cars, I was always offered the front seat. I never felt comfortable at school, there was always whispers. I was once told, I was cute and had “big boobs” but I was “fat sooo”. One girl said in Grade 12, my skirt was much too short and the sight of my legs hurt her eyes. I was always told I had such a “pretty face” never I was just pretty. I was always made to feel like I had to be funny because all “fat” people were funny because, and this is a quote from someone who I spoke to once, “they haven’t got much else going for them”. I’ve heard all the comments from “are you sure you want to eat that” to “you can’t have that much” from people who were closest to me. I’ve always been embarrassed by the way I look. 

I grew more confident once I got older, maybe 18+ because I was a grown up and if I wanted to be like this I could, because it was my responsibility now. Having intimate relationships gave me a little more confidence. Knowing someone was attracted to my body as it was made my confidence sky rocket, I mean who doesn’t wanna feel sexy and wanted and desired? Even with that confidence I still always had the voice in my head that said, don’t lay that way you look gross or don’t do that your fat will wobble and move in a unappealing way. I always had that damn voice telling me over and over, you’re taking up too much room, you’re eating too much; YOU ARE TOO MUCH

(Me at age 15, in grade 10 I believe at a friends party) 

As a 23 year old I still have some of the same thoughts. I am at my heaviest weight and that’s sad for me. It’s hard to hear and it’s hard to carry. I want to say sorry to my body everyday for allowing it to be like this. I want change. I want to be healthier. I want to be around for a long time, to be able to carry children in the future. I’ve recently started a health plan at my doctors surgery and have been referred to a dietician and an exercise physio. I am anxious to be on such a journey but I am also so so excited. I’m doing something for me and to better myself. 
I know I have the love of my family and friends regardless of the size I am. Numbers on a scale mean nothing to those who love me and for that I am thankful. I’m thankful they can see my great qualities & my flaws and not act differently depending which I’m showing them that day. 
I am growing more confident every day. I am feeling more comfortable with myself and the way I look. I try and be less embarrassed by the way I look and try to focus on the good person I am. Even though I’m trying to lose weight I am happier in myself now which I think is important to. Being a big girl isn’t a bad thing and I’m not saying I hate my curves because I don’t. I still wanna be a fierce lady with bomb ass curves. I just wanna be a little toner and little slimmer and feel comfortable. 
Hopefully there are a few more health updates as the entries come. This has been a tough one to write and I’m grateful for everyone who reads this. I hope you don’t see me in a different light. 

Until next time, talk soon x 

Vegetable Soup recipe! 

Hi, hey, hello! Today’s entry is just a quick recipe of mine, that I made up and cooked for my lunch today. I’m really trying to cut back/eventually cut out meat from my diet and this is the perfect recipe for that. You definitely don’t miss meat in this vegetable soup. It is suitable for vegans also! (Note: I use frozen vegetables because it’s more convenient for my lifestyle but you could certainly use fresh!) 

Ingredients: 

  • Vegetable stock powder 
  • Frozen peas 
  • Frozen mixed vegetables 
  • Frozen beans 
  • Potatoes 
  • Frozen diced kale 
  • Frozen diced spinach 
  • Mexican chilli spice mix (Masterfoods)
  • Soy sauce 
  • Olive oil 
  • Salt (optional) 
  • Cashew nuts, plain roasted 

Method: 

  1.  Let vegetables defrost for a small amount of time. 
  2. Place a large pot on the stove. Put in small amount of oil. Put in as much or as little of each vegetable. Cut potatoes into small cubes so they cook faster. 
  3. Add soy sauce (a few splashes) and Mexican Chilli Spice Mix and just fry vegetables for a couple of minutes. This is so they can absorb some flavours before adding stock. 
  4. Follow the instructions on the stock packet but I did around 6 cups of water to hand full or so of stock powder. Add as much or as little as you like, this is all made to taste so I never measure anything really. 
  5. Wait for everything to come to the boil. Then simmer the soup for 30+ minutes or until the potatoes are soft. 
  6. Then you’ll need to take the soup off the heat and use a hand held blender to blitz up the soup to your desired texture. I like my soup slightly chunky so I left some veggie chunks in mine. 
  7. Next to go in are the cashews. Just crush with the back of a spoon and sprinkle in. Then blitz again. 
  8. To finish soup, ladle into a bowl sprinkle with crushed cashews and a splash of soy sauce. 


There you have it! My vegetable soup. I think next time I’ll add some different vegetables to see how that tastes. I love making things up as I go and making things to taste. I can’t wait to share some more quick recipes with you all in the future. 

My gratefuls for today are: 

  1. I’m grateful for my mum and dad for allowing me in the kitchen from a young age so I was able to be confident in making my own food. 
  2. I’m grateful for the money I have in my bank. It might not be much but it is enough. 
  3. I’m also grateful for my friends. They always make me feel loved and included which am I so thankful for. 

Until next time! Talk soon x 

Through my lens 📸

Hi, hey, hello! I thought I’d lighten the mood with this weeks first post. Here are some photographs I’ve taken over the years. Photography has always been a hobby of mine and I hope you enjoy these! I usually use my Canon 600D or iPhone 6S. I am looking forward to purchasing a new camera soon as I can, my Canon unfortunately has broken after 4-5 years of owning it. These were taken all over Australian. Mainly on the east coast (Townsville, Brisbane, Melbourne) and then some in Adelaide. 

(Blog subject as voted by a poll held on my Twitter!) If you want to vote on the next blog subject please visit my Twitter @laurachristina_ for more details! 

My gratefuls for today are: 

  1. I am grateful for my Dad for always helping me out even if he complains. I know he loves me and will always be there for me. 
  2. I am grateful for my home and my health. Although neither are amazing at the moment I am safe and well. 
  3. I am grateful for the love and support from my family and friends. It means a lot to me to have those closest to me support me and help me when I need it. 

Until next time! Talk soon x

My anxiety story; from 9 to 23. 

Hi, hey, hello everyone! Another day another entry. I will let you all know from now on posts will come Monday, Wednesday & Friday! (Unless stated otherwise) I’m hoping for big entries on Monday and Friday then a fun little one on Wednesday. Anywho, my entry today is going to be a little more on the serious side. I took a poll on twitter to see what everyone wanted to hear about and today’s topic is my anxiety story. 
So, here we go. Looking back on my life I can recognise anxiety symptoms better now as an adult rather than back then when I was a child. My first anxiety attack I was around 9 years old. At the time I thought I was just learning about the “voice in my head” you know your conscience. It’s important to know the difference. Unfortunately as I’ve gotten older my anxiety and conscience have kind of moulded into one “emotion” you could say. I found it wasn’t a regular thing, more spaced out panic attacks, until I was around 15/16 when I noticed myself not wanting to go to school, having panic attacks about certain situations and assignments (mainly group assignments). Once my mum became sick, which I will talk about in another entry, it got a lot worse. I never wanted to leave the house, I slept a lot and ate even more, which I will also talk about in another entry. It was definitely a depression/anxiety cocktail. I was dealing with (depression 40% anxiety 60%). I use the term dealings with very loosely, I did nothing for it. I just let it get worse. To the point of self harm. Now for anyone who knows me I hope this isn’t a huge deal for you to read but yes I have struggled with self harm/bad thoughts in my life. Not in the most common way though so I have no external scars or sores. It’s always something even now I think about when things get really hard. I haven’t done it in about 2-3 years so I’m happy about that but it’s always in the back of my head. 


Once my mum passed away I started pushing things down. I never cried I never acted sad to people. I think that was a coping method of mine, not a healthy one but one all the same. 
Anxiety just became a part of my life. It effected every single part. My work life, my family life, my relationship at the time suffered because of it. To be honest with you, it still does. It effects my day to day life. I find it hard to leave the house or get into cars without anxiety. I don’t sleep very well, I wake up a lot during the night. I try and do relaxation/meditation before going to bed and I tend to fall asleep with the tv on. 
Most days it’s just a constant worry, an overthink, an intense feeling of someone who is about to pull the rug out from under you. Like tripping up the stairs you know, that feeling you get in your gut. I’ve tried medications from my teens till now. None really work for a long time, I also have tried talking to psychologists which helps for a little while too. I even got hypnotised once which honestly worked a lot better than I thought it would. But again it wore off. 
Even if I found a strategy to help with my anxiety, it kind of scares me to not have anxiety if that makes sense. It’s comfortable it’s what I’m used to. It’s a safety blanket (that constantly makes you feel unsafe) and it’s scary to think of a life without that. With nothing holding me back from making friends, getting a job in certain places, being comfortable with my own company, not panicking if someone doesn’t text me back straight away etc. 
I know this all sounds super down and super serious. I live a pretty good life. I’m grateful for my health, my home, my family and friends who may not always understand but who try to. I am always working on my anxiety in one way or another and am confident it won’t be something I deal with forever. 


(Photo above: at the shops. It takes a lot for me to go out to the shops. I tend to spend a lot of time on my phone to distract myself from my anxious feelings) 
If you have anxiety or depression and you’re unsure or scared I recommend contacting Headspace (https://www.headspace.org.au) who have an online chat room that you can speak to a counsellor anonymously if you want to. They also have helpful links via their website! Beyond Blue (https://www.beyondblue.org.au) is good for helping others with mental health issues too! 
If you or someone you know is suffering from mental health issues/suicidal thoughts or actions please call 000 in an emergency or Lifeline 24/7, 131114. 
My 3 gratefuls for today are 

1. I’m grateful for my sister for asking me to babysit her animals this weekend. 

2. I am grateful for this cold, rainy weather because my town’s dam needs the water! Plus it’s nice to snuggle up with puppy’s and watch tv. 

3. I’m grateful for my health. I’m working on it daily and I am hoping to keep improving as I go. 
Until next time guys, enjoy your weekend! Talk soon x 

20 Random Facts about Me!

Hi, hey, hello everyone! Today I have decided to do a quick 20 facts about me entry to really let you guys know who I am or rather a few unique things about me. Firstly, here are a few pictures of me!

1. My father was born in Germany so I am half Australian and half German.

2. I am 5 foot 2 (5’3 on a good day lol)

3. I have 3 older siblings.

4. My favourite colour is yellow.

5. My most favourite movie is The Wizard of Oz (1939) and I got to dress up as Dorothy for my 21st birthday!

6. I love live music and have seen almost all of my favourite bands in concert.

7. I have green eyes that change colour from dark to light depending on my mood.

8. I own a Maine Coon cat which is one of the largest domestic breeds of cat you can own.

9. I’m addicted to Lush products.

10. I have really, really small hands (one day I’ll post a comparison pic)

11. I had my poems published when I was in primary school.

12. I love watching cooking shows.

13. I love reading paperback books. Digital books just aren’t the same.

14. I’ve never been overseas.

15. 80’s & 90’s music are my favourite. Also the best to do karaoke to.

16. Speaking of karaoke, I can’t sing well but I love to a lot.

17. One Tree Hill, RuPaul’s Drag Race, Bob’s Burgers, Law & Order: SVU & The Office (USA) are my top 5 favourite tv shows.

18. I have a very new found love for make up. I love it so much & I love learning about more/new products all the time.

19. Photography has always been a passion of mine.

20. I am addicted to tea. I drink multiple cups a day.
I hope you all enjoyed getting to know me a little bit better. Leave me a comment with a fact or two about yourself! 
Also, my 3 gratefuls for today are:

1. I am grateful for my hearing. As I sit and listen to music I realise how it effects my mood/life so profoundly.

2. I am grateful for my eldest sister for calling me this morning. We always have the best chats and I always feel empowered afterwards.

3. I am grateful for my home. For feeling safe and 100% myself here. This is my haven and I am so grateful to have it.
Until next time! Much love, talk soon x

Hi, hey, hello! First blog post 🌸

This is the excerpt for your very first post.

Hello everyone! Wow this is my first post on WordPress. I’m so excited to finally be doing something I’ve talked about for a while. First things first, I’m Laura. I am 23 years old and I live in North Queensland, Australia. I own 1 cat, Harry, who I’m sure will be featured in most future entries. I guess I wanted to start this blog as kind of a healing process for me but also as a way to connect with other people who may or may not be going through some similar things and maybe we can help each other! My entries will really focus on my life, my journey to living healthier, how I have incorporated gratitude/affirmations into my daily routine, my struggle with an anxiety disorder and just about everything else in between!

I really want to be able to share an affirmation or a daily thought to you guys so we can chat in the comments. I am going to post 3 things I’m grateful for on each post as well to help spread positivity and maybe teach whoever is reading that starting small can lead to big changes.
Currently I am at my heaviest weight unfortunately. I’m wanting to change that obviously, so I’ve started eating better and started exercising a little bit. I’ve been told not to rush into it, to ease my joints into more movements. So hopefully I can start sharing my meals, recipes & even little workouts I do with you all! Hopefully we can encourage each other.
I’m so excited to start sharing this with everyone. Hopefully you can get behind me with some support. I really hope you enjoy reading and contributing to my blog!

  1. Today I am grateful for starting my blog. For plucking up the courage to share myself with more people.
  2. I am grateful for my health. Although not the best I am still walking, talking & breathing.
  3. I am grateful to my friends and family who I know support and love me even in my own times of doubt.

Leave a comment, introduce yourself & tell me where you’re from! Talk soon 😊